i told myself.

i told myself i was going to write all day so i cut, cleaned and boiled beets.

i sat down to write, with 2 minute breathers every 15, for 3 hours so i washed and dried the dishes.

i told myself i was going to write all morning so i filled the kettle, ground the beans, spooned the grounds into the french press and brewed wondrous morning coffee. coffeeing is fun.

i sat down, feet and calves on the chair under table, to write for the entire afternoon so i dug my not-so-oft-used reusable grocery bag from under the bed, drove to the grocery store, stocked up on veggies, dark chocolate and salsa. i was one reusable-bag short. i had to place the eggs on the roof to unlock the door. egging your own car is dumb. messy, careless and dumb.

i told myself i was going to write all afternoon so i walked to my bedroom, unplugged my phone, browsed the bookshelf, walked back to my workbench and placed the phone beside the computer. they say uninterrupted work is the most fruitful...i find it hinders procrastination.

i sat down to write so i opened a dark chocolate bar and ate 3 squares. i let them melt in mouth and yummy yes, crunchy no so i opened the fridge, peeled, cleaned and ate two large carrots. the bagged, pre-cut, mini carrots are unnatural, lacking of true carrot taste and often covered in slime. the real carrots were good.

i told myself i was going to write for no less than 4 hours and more if my fingers were cutting a rug so i poured myself a glass of water, sent my roommate a text to ask if he'd fed the fish and called the ticket hotline to reserve a seat at some bluegrass cd release party.

i sat down to write so i biked to the video store and rented 'The Class' and 'As Good As It Gets.' mid debit-transaction the clerk, whom i assumed a mute, reminded me of the movie i rented last week - it's due today. so i biked home to grab the movie, ate a piece of dark chocolate (which was, post carrot-eating, broken into small pieces and placed in a jar on the spice rack - first time ever) and biked back to the video store. how did he know i was planning to write today?

i told myself i was going to enjoy writing today so i read a book about enjoying writing. in it julie cameron told me, "if it's worth doing it's worth doing badly." great book...

naturally, i listened to her.